God's Providence

As I sit here today avoiding my long to do list, I am thankful for my family, my church, and all that we have. God has given us so much. I am not talking about monetary things, I am talking about the countless blessing that we have. I am blessed to have an amazing husband that puts me before himself. Two beautiful boys that bring me joy. I have my health, family, and few friends. We might not have a beautiful home, new cars, new clothes, nice furniture, or the newest technology, but we do have the Lord. He is such an amazing God! He provides for our every need. His promises are so true. He loves me so much that He sent his one and only Son to die on the cross for me and my sins.


The past few Monday night we have done a study on Ruth in our bible study. I see myself in Ruth is some ways. I see the love and faith she had in God and I strive to be more like her. She followed her mother in law closely. Praise God that I have a relationship like this with my mother in law. I love her, I adore her, and I look to her for Christ like counsel. Last week we learned about God's providence in our lives. This week I have looked at all the small details that God has orchestrated. It is not by chance it is all a part of God's providence in my life.


As most of my close friends and family know, I have been struggling so much with being content in my life. I see people around me with all these things that I wish I had. But God is all I need. I need to keep that imprinted in the forefront of my mind. A wise man once told me (my hubby) a woman that covets has no money. So true! Why is it so hard for me to just be content? I ask God this all the time. Then someone that I know will get something that I have wanted for a long time or have the newest THING that is in and I find myself coveting all over again. Why am I writing about this? I am not really sure. Just on my heart weighing down heavy. As tears roll down my face while I type I just am asking to be content. Can’t I just be happy with the all that I have already? Take a moment today and thank God for all that you have and all that you don't have. There is a reason for everything and I am trusting that God is going to take care of me. God bless my friends.

3rd year anniversary

Happy Anniversary to us!Wow! How quickly three years pass. A lot has changed in our three years of marriage. My husband could not have said it any better, this year we find ourselves more financially constricted than before. No flowers to celebrate, no great big trip will take place. This year we spent our anniversary eating chicken fingers on the floor of our living room with both the boys watching Hairspray. I got a very short but sad letter as my gift this year. Sad because it is reality, we are broke, have a one month old that completely relies on me. This year no sort of celebration will take places. I cried yesterday to my beloved and told him I just want to rewind and go back to when we were just courting. I miss courting my husband. Going out to dinner and not having to be home by a certain time. Watching a movie that we really want to watch and not being worried that a bad word might be said or that the content will be inappropriate. Weekend trips! Being romantic without being intrupted by a crying baby. Ahh those days are long gone and here are the days of sleepless nights and no time for romance. Last night we got Peyton down and I thought that it was going to be a perfect night. It was also time for Riley to eat so I thought he would just go to sleep and then I could spend sometime alone with my hubby. Riley was NOT going to let that happen. I feed him, burped him, changed his diaper and put him to bed. He ended up not settling down for two hours. By then Brian was sound asleep and I was just exhausted. I felt terrible! I realized as tears fell down my face that my life has changed dramatically. I miss time alone with Brian. I know that this too shall pass and that this will not last forever, but can’t a girl get a break at least on her anniversary. We were hoping to get to do something by ourselves this weekend and then we realized that Brian will be out of commission for a few days. So that idea went out the door. God willing we will be able to at least have dinner alone soon enough. Brian I love you. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. Never did I dream that I would find someone that would just love me for who I am. I always thought that I had to be someone that I wasn’t and with you and I just can be myself. You complete me. Thank you for putting up with all my crazy moments in the past three years. We are so blessed to have you. Not many women can say that they have the best husband, but I can say that and truly mean it. Thank you for making me laugh and smile in the moments when I am so down. Thank you for supporting all my ideas and dreams. Thank you for blessing me with our two wonderful boys. I love you more then ever before. May the Lord bless us with many more years together. Happy anniversary my love.

Booby Tubes to the rescue

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Spankx, a girl just sometimes has to depend on them.

 Once upon a time I would get excited about things that seemed like there was a cause for excitement. Such as a hot date with the hubby, alone time, shopping sprees, Disneyland, a family trip. Now a days I get excited if I take a shower that day, brush my teeth before 5 p.m., go to the restroom by myself with out any interruptions. Today is Thursday, not just any ordinary Thursday that is. This Thursday is our second outing as a family since Riley was born. To most they think it is not a big deal. As for me, not so much. It is a production; it calls for bathing of all three of us before the hubby gets home, picking out the perfect outfit for all of us, and getting me ready. Any of you that know me well know that I take forever and a day to get ready. Especially with two children. As I rumble through my closet searching for that perfect outfit to wear I am in shock! I just went shopping not too long ago and bought a few things, and wouldn't you know it, I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR!!!!!!!!!! What is a girl to do! I have gained 50 lbs from having my son. Of course I have lost a little of that, but everything that I try on shows off that wonderful flap over roll that just does not seem to want to go away. I never thought I would be a woman that would depend on Spankx daily to make me feel better, but at this point in my life I am that woman! As I put on my Spankx and then pull over my dress all of a sudden the roll is gone. For a moment I feel skinny and content with the body that I have post pregnancy. Then reality sets back in. Riley starts to cry; Peyton comes in telling me a million times, "Mommy, baby brother cry!” Sure enough it makes Peyton cry as well. I rip off the dress and the Spankx and I am back to life, back to reality. Back to my nursing bra and maternity underwear, and the ugly maternity clothes that still seems to fit. I am excited to soon be able to workout again. To have all my clothes fit me again. To be able to go shopping in my own closet, not to mention I am sure that the hubby will be excited for that one as well. Only a few more hours until my hubby comes home and then we are off to our second family outing.

Has it really been a month already?

Wow! How time flies! On Wednesday, July 22 I told Brian that I though I was going to have the baby. We went to San Joaquin and were there for 5 hours with little progress and a lot of pain. Needless to say they sent me home. Finally on Friday, July 24 I could not take it any longer. I told Brian I doubt that they will keep me again but I just need to know if I had made any progress since Wednesday. Sure enough I was dilated to 5 cm and they were keeping me! Wow! After laboring all on my own to 8cm I had enough of the pain. I needed some help. Every time I had a contraction I was lifting my whole body off the bed with my arms. After the whole birth I felt like I had my arms had been run over by a truck. Before going into labor I had planned on having a natural birth without any help from pain medication. Not because I was looking to get an award for having a natural birth, but because of my experience with having Peyton. For those of you that do not know I had him via c-section due to his Omphalocele. With Peyton I was violently ill due to the medications they had given me and I did not remember most of the things that happened. With Riley I was making an attempt to have a VBAC (vaginal birth after c-section). I was so exhausted once I got to 8cm and the pain just kept getting worse I ended up with the epidural. After having the epidural I am proud to say that I made a great decision in doing so. After an hour and a half of pushing Riley Jaxon Mehciz was welcomed into the world on July 25, 2009 at 2:59 a.m. He weighed 7 lbs 12oz, and was 19 inches long. As soon as he was born the tears just started pouring out. I was elated that I had achieved the most rewarding experience that a woman could experience, natural child birth. In the month of bringing him home I have learned so much. My greatest accomplishment to date is having both of my sons. There is nothing in this world that is greater then having children. Even though at times I want to run out the door screaming and pulling my hair out, I made the right choice in becoming a mom. Riley came home only 14 hours after being born. At his three day check up we found out that Riley was jaundice. He was under a bililight here at home for a week. In this first month of life Brian and I have changed over 400 diapers, I have pumped a countless number of times, bottle feed, breastfeed, and burped non-stop. For Brian and I this is a new experience having a newborn at home. Not exactly what we thought it would be, but defiantly a learning experience. Riley I have fallen in love with you. Your smile can make me smile no matter how tired or grumpy I might be. In this past month you have gained almost 4 lbs. Your features have all changed. We are getting to a more normal schedule and thankfully a little more sleep at a time! Happy 1 month birthday my chunky monkey or like you daddy calls you tubby! :0)